Thursday, November 26, 2015

Chat MS - 11/23/2015

This week's Chat MS was about social anxiety with MS - please feel free to copy/paste the questions to your own blog.

Remember to keep the conversation going and have a great Thanksgiving -

Q1 – MS can cause or add to social anxiety. Do you experience Social Anxiety since being diagnosed with MS?

 Absolutely.  I already have general anxiety disorder, and when I'm having a flare or especially after I was initially diagnosed, I had even more bouts of it.

Q2 – What contributes most to your social anxiety? (A certain symptom, using an assisting device, someone’s actions, etc.)

This biggest thing is that I have MS at all.  People don't understand it and I want to educate them, but at the same time I 'don't want to talk about it.'  This goes especially with my coworkers and bosses, because having MS makes me an ADA risk.  I have lost job opportunities after one of the potential employers found out I had MS and clearly didn't really understand what that meant.  I have not missed a day of work because of my MS in over 18 months.

I also struggle with telling people that I'm with about the possibility of my fatiguing quickly.  I have a relatively svelte figure, am tall and thin, and otherwise look healthy.  When I mention that I'm too tired to do something, I get a lot of eye rolls.  I look good on the outside, but on the inside, I'm struggling to stay alert.  This is really a hard thing to feel good about.

Q3 – On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the worst), how severe would you say your average anxiety bout is?

7 or 8.  I tip to 10 when I have to drive somewhere - but driving is my general anxiety trigger anyway.

Q4 – Are there situations or places you purposely avoid because of your anxiety?

Not necessarily, but I am known to be flaky because I'll feel good about doing something the day before, but when I wake up, I'm just not up for it.  This happens a lot.  It's the most common issue I struggle with when I'm not having an active flare up.  I remember being able to go all day on my feet, working full time in a job where I couldn't sit down, and get up and go the next day with no issue.  Pain free.  I miss those times.

Q5 – Have you discussed social anxiety with your neuro? What did they say?

Nah - it never really came up and I doubt he can do anything about it.  Unfortunately social anxiety is not like GAD and isn't really affected by medication.

Q6 – Do you ever worry or get anxious about things that have not happened and may never happen?  

Abso-freaking-lutely.  All the time.  I am afraid I'll wake up and not be able to move, my baby will be crying, and I won't be able to help.  I have this dream a lot, and it makes me think about it all day long.  I worry about my ability to get around.  I worry I will have a flare that affects my hands and I won't be able to work.  I worry I will be out with friends and will have to stop before they're ready to.

Q7 - What do you feel when you experience social anxiety?

I get quiet and I don't want to talk to anyone at all.  I'm not an easy crier but it makes me feel like I am about to flood the room.  My heart beats quickly and I feel like I might pass out - it's very close to a panic attack.

Q8 – What helps you overcome bouts of social anxiety and what tips would you have for others?

The best thing is to spend time with people who are willing to ask questions.  Tell people you don't feel well.  But I still really struggle with this because I don't like getting eyes rolled at me - because frankly, people don't believe me.

Love to all - MSloan

Monday, November 16, 2015

Chat MS - 11/16/2015

Hey all!

I didn't get to participate one bit in this week's ChatMS on Twitter - but as someone who doesn't drink, it doesn't look like it really applied to me anyway!  Feel free to copy/paste the questions to put up on your blog.  Remember to keep the conversation going!

I'll put in a few rudimentary answers where I can, but again, I don't drink.  Love to all!

Q1 – Alcohol, depending on amount, can affect the central nervous system. Were you told to stop drinking alcohol after diagnosis?

I was never told this - but I do think it can exacerbate problems (like vestibular dysfunction if one is already prone to dizziness.)

Q2 – Some MSers report worsening symptoms even after one drink. Have you noticed the effects of alcohol being different?

It's odd, but I have!  Just as small as a dose of Nyquil and my whole body feels funny.  So I bet it's good that I don't drink otherwise :) 

Q3 – Some DMD treatments can affect the liver as well as alcohol. Do you take a DMD and still consume alcohol?

DMD means 'disease modifying drug.'  I was not on a DMD that was affected by alcohol but I was placed on an anti-depressant that couldn't be used with alcohol.

Q4 – When discussing different treatments was “Can I still drink alcohol?” one of your first questions?

Not even close - my first question was "can I still fly to my job interview next week?"  The answer was no - it was a busy month and my life was very much disrupted!

Q5 – Do certain types of alcohol affect your MS symptoms in different ways? For example, wine may not affect you, but beer does. 

No comment here

Q6 - Have you found any benefits to drinking moderately when you have MS?

No comment here

Q7 - When out with friends, do you avoid consuming alcohol? Why or why not?  

Not for the purposes of my MS; there are other things I already have to be cognizant about while out with people.

Q8 – Have you heard drinking alcohol may be beneficial to MS? Some studies have shown it slows progression.

I have never heard this, how interesting!  My husband laughed his butt off when I told him this and showed him the attached article.  I have heard good things about marijuana tinctures and MS but have not explored it myself.  At least, not yet!!

Love all! - MSloan

Monday, November 9, 2015

Chat MS - 11/09/2015

This week's Chat MS dealt with weight gain; I missed the live chat, but hopefully this keeps it going!
If we don't talk about it, progress has no chance!  Please feel free to copy/paste to your own blog to include those who don't participate in weekly Chat MS.

I haven't experienced weight gain as a result of my MS, but I have had other symptoms that are semi-related to this.  I will do the best I can to stay relevant with these answers!

Q1 - Although it may be overlooked, it’s common for MSers to gain weight. Have you experienced weight gain since diagnosis?

I was fortunate in that it didn't give me weight gain, at least not a noticeable amount.  Being pregnant is much worse for the figure :) but I am a stress starver instead of a stress eater, which might have been the biggest reason why instead of gaining weight, I lost weight after my diagnosis.

Q2 – Weight gain can be contributed to fatigue making it difficult to stay active. Would you say this contributed?

What kept me from being active the most was not fatigue, though that definitely played a part.  When I exercised, my numbness got worse.  I couldn't feel my legs - at all.  I felt very unstable.  It's really hard to run if you can't feel your feet AND your legs - I ended up doing a lot of yoga which didn't exercise me as well as I wanted it to, and I was afraid I might tear something because I couldn't self-monitor my limits as well.

Q3 – A side effects of steroids is also weight gain. With steroids commonly used for relapses, have you noticed this?  

Nah - worst effect with the steroids was no sleep, dead tired during the day, and altered taste.  Yuck!

Q4 – MS can cause weight gain, yet being overweight can worsen symptoms. Have you adjusted your lifestyle do to weight gain?

No comment here -

Q5 – Have you noticed a difference after changing your eating habits and/or exercise routines? If so, in what way?

I have to say - I had to change my eating habits because I was chasing the causes of certain exacerbated symptoms.  My MS hugs were nauseating and debilitating.  They would come in waves throughout the day.  I then found out my gallbladder was somewhat on the fritz - they wanted to remove it but I didn't understand why no gallbladder was somehow better than an organ that worked a few percentage points lower than 'optimal.'  I had odd lower-right pain that felt like an ovarian cyst - but no cyst.  It was very painful.  Appendix was fine.  Now, I'm doing okay without pain and I tracked down the cause of what I was calling MS hugs for so long - - an overload of almonds would set it off, as would my Centrum chewy multivitamins.  Who knew?

Q6 – Yoga is great for symptom relief, fatigue relief, and weight loss. Have you done yoga? Any particular yoga program?

I love yoga - but I wouldn't do anything other than gentle yoga until my numbness subsided.  It is so easy to hurt yourself if you can't feel your muscles saying 'stop,' and the whole point of yoga is to stretch.  You can end up giving yourself a problem you don't already have, so be careful!  But I have to say, when I started doing yoga (and my wonderful husband did it with me), I loved that I was moving muscles I didn't know I had.

Q7 - what other tips or advice would you give to MSers who are are experiencing weight gain?

My biggest advice would be to try not to stress about your weight on top of everything else you are dealing with.  Your body is trying to heal.  If your body gains weight after steroid treatment, the swelling will go down.  Don't panic, and definitely don't overwork yourself.  Save your spoons, so to speak, and listen to what your body says!

That's all, folks!  Love to all -
MSloan