Hello all! It's been a while!
I apologize for not giving frequent updates - but that is a GOOD thing. It means I haven't been experiencing TOO many problems, and that's the goal, isn't it?
Since November, I have had strange stomach pains that I thought were MS hugs, and now I am not so sure. Initially thinking it was possibly appendicitis and/or ovarian cysts, I have had a few ultrasounds and a HIDA scan, and it turns out my gallbladder only works at 25% - which is likely one of the reasons for my stomach pains. I can't quite figure out which pains are due to this issue and what I can attribute to the MS - which is somewhat disconcerting. Anyone who has experience with MS hugs or other abdominal issues is welcome to comment, please! As I type this, I have a nagging pain in my lower right, the same one I had when I initially started getting worked up - it is not my appendix, so who knows what else could cause that?
It has been almost a year since my MS really 'began.' I put that in quotes because I know my symptoms really started about 5 years ago, but on February 26th last year, my left leg went numb. It no longer was an ignorable problem. After many months of Solumedrol treatments and no improvement, continued lesion growth, five shots of Acthar, beginning Gilenya and anti-depressants, moving to California and starting a new job - - - there are many changes.
I no longer have constant numbness in my left leg. I can work out now without any tinglies as well. For the most part, I feel back to 'normal'! It's a great improvement. But I am aware that things aren't perfect. My left toes occasionally go numb and tingle. My forearms have the most numbness, though it never lasts an entire day. Sometimes it is there, sometimes it is not. The most recent symptom is a constant ringing in my right ear - I would assume that is a serious issue doing what I do, but I attribute that to the MS and my existing hearing loss on the left side means it would be unilateral.
My mood has improved dramatically since last year as a result of the anti-depressants, which makes me happy and sad at the same time. My husband and I want to have a family, but this particular anti-depressant, along with the Gilenya, are very dangerous for a pregnancy. To go off the medication at this point puts me at a number of risks that we have to weigh. I was hoping at this point in my life that I could secretly go off my birth control and let nature take its course, but now I have to be more vigilant about my pill than ever. Combining all the abdominal pain symptoms with some other issues I have been having, things point to such sinister things as ovarian cancer - so it's a scary time as much as it is a relieving one.
In the meantime, since about September of this past year, my family has gone through a huge change. My father was accused of murder early in 2014. My mother, who I am already certain has a myriad of psychological issues, has gone off the wire in regards to the crime and is now convinced my father is stalking her. I consistently tell the joke that everyone loves my father but my mother - but that really is true. Meanwhile my sister and I are getting bombarded with daily emails about how not ill she is, which only makes us feel more and more confident that she is, indeed, disturbed. I have always told people that watching "Mommy Dearest" is very close to watching an autobiography of my childhood. I know this is a bit off topic from the MS, but seeing as it tends to be heavily influenced by stress, I figure it is worth mentioning in this medium.
So how is everyone else doing? Have any of you had any new symptoms, treatments, or issues you need to get off your chest? I'm all ears (or eyes, as it were). Love to all!
