Not Okay

 I'm not okay, I'm not okay

I'm not okay again today

I feel ragged, torn, and shunned

Hated by just about everyone

Including myself - indeed, the most

I seem such an unlikely host

For creativity at all

And when I'm stuck within a fall

I can't get up, can't move my legs

They're stiff and broken like old pegs

But no one knows because to me

I'm too invisible to see

So here I am, online again

Praying for an early end

To get me out of this deep hole

Or maybe something to cleanse my soul

So I feel free, honored and loved

And stop staring at skies above 

Where nobody looks down on me

I know it - its simple to see

I'm just alone. Alone again

Oh how I wish I had a friend

Someone to trust and share my things

Someone who missed me, my art, my sings

Instead I'm sitting here alone

Solitary, on my own

Streaming tears straight down my face

Only a paper mask in its place

Because I need to hide those tears

Embarrassment one of many fears

That keep me locked up deep inside

Shuttered beside my wounded pride

So no, I'm not okay today

I'm not okay. I'm not okay.